I'm being a emo lately. i don't know why I'm writing this here.... people hear enough emo bitching. but well yeah. if you don't wanna read it don't. it really wont bother me to much.

shits really not going my way. it feels like every time i dream of something some big dude comes along and stomps the dream into dust, then the wind blows the dust away. it hurts when everything hits you at once. but it hurts even more when you take blow after blow.

I'm usually a rock. people could say anything and i would just look at them and laugh. but right now... anything could push me over the edge. I'm under some serious stress right now, and its hard to be that nice optimistic guy.

i have been having the worst week ever. i almost had a nervous break down at work, i was shaking and freaking out, i screamed at every little thing on the way home. i was so very angry. and it showed the next day. so much that i had to leave school after lunch out of fear of the safety of myself and everyone around me. i tore everyone who pushed my buttons that day a new asshole. i went home and just stared at my computer screen trying to calm myself, and also trying to hide the fact that i might kill someone from my brother.

... and well lets just say life hasn't dealt me a better hand yet.

its thanksgiving tomorrow. and i just found out about an hour ago that the boss changed the schedule and wants me to work at 6, and I'm suppose to go see the parents at 5, that's just another thing on top of it all.

i guess i should be grateful i still have a roof over my head, and internet to bitch at people on (lol) but i still feel like I'm getting the short end of the stick.

i really hope i get to see my friend tomorrow, they are really good at making me feel better. they always have the right thing to say. usually its not even related but it still makes me feel better. I hope i haven't seemed to intrusive or pushy. i just really need someone to say something that will help.

now see. that was a bucket of emo there. that most of the people that watch me wont even read. but at least I'm saying it somewhere.

on a side note. i got a printer scanner. but im waiting on the CD so i can install the drivers for it. so expect some new stuff from me in the near future hopefully. and believe me there is a lot of it.

but yeah. im most likely gonna go over to my old roommates and play video games. possible drink, but probably not, i know it will only make me feel worse.



-This long ass bitch rant was brought to you by-

-Inigma. AKA Brenstarfire-



Cya all later. by no means is this me leaving devi. the only way that'll happen is if i get my ass banned, which is unlikely.